My Personal Testimony

Do yall mind if I testify? Well if you do, oh well, its my page. Last month, I went to the Doctor for my regular check up, and everything was really good! I'd been working out, eating even healthier, I was doing good! My BP was down to normal, my cholesterol was normal, I was GOOD! Then my Doctor began to look puzzled, she was like OMG! This can't be! Now I'm like oh Lawd... she started researching my past records, I say, "what is it?" She says, "your blood platelets are really high". I asked how high? She look at me and said, "725" I asked, what did that mean? She, politely said, Ms. Taylor, I'm gonna need you to see the Oncologist (blood cancer doctor), I took a deep breath and asked, "are you saying I may have cancer? Of coarse she was like tryna sooth me and stuff. But it didn't help. She said to me, you are not making enough red blood cells, and so this has caused your blood platelets to increase, meaning you are more prone to a blood clot, and we don't want this, so I'm like, huh, you telling me! So for three days or so, I'm back and fourth to the doctors for testing for Leukemia and two other cancers I can't even pronounce. The now have me on more meds than I was on before, and I'm sick as a dog, can't sleep, or eat much, and to top it off the word cancer and my name was in the same sentenced. But I thank God for Godly friends and family who pray for real and not just when they get in trouble, lol. But see my miracle wasn't gonna come from just their prayers, but it was gonna be based up on my faith, and my prayer. This is what I prayed, "Lord I need you to touch my body, and heal me of all these crazy ailments, cause, I got better things to do with my time, than fight cancer, I'm sure you have another assignment for me to do, another soul for me to reach out to, a song to sing, and encouragement to give to somebody!! Lord, I need you to heal me, and not let me have leukemia". So later in the week, I see the Oncologist, and they look at what my primary doctor sent over, and run more test, she leaves the room, and when she comes back in, she has this look on her face, she hugs me, and says GOD BLESS YOU, but you do not have Leukemia, (pause) Now, I could have, just went in right there, but she was hugging me and I didn't want to scare her, lol. I do how ever have Anemia and its pretty bad, but it aint cancer, the meds I take to help build my blood, thin it out, and all the other counter acting crap I take, took me 21 days to get use to, but it aint chemo, I feel sick, a little lethargic at times, and tired, but I'm gonna yet live. So as I was cleaning my room just now, I couldn't help but thank God. I said all of that to say this, all my other blood work was GREAT! so why would God not complete the work he started concerning my health. He is an awesome and might God, in which I love with my all. And I keep my self grounded by reminding myself that somebody, didn't get the news that I got that day, somebody right now is fighting cancer or something else, but he saw fit to spare me..... So you see, there's really a story behind my praise, I've been partially blind, high blood pressure, congested heart failure,edema, but to look at me, you would never know, because I don't look like what I been through, and only a fool wouldn't wanna rejoice over how good God is, and has been. The word of God tells me that I can over come by the words of my testimony, and I hope this has encouraged somebody, to keep the faith, to hold on, no matter what the situation may be, trust God. he said he would never leave us, nor for sake us, and that all things were possible if we just believe, casting all of our cares up on him, and our path for our life he was going to make. An it is in times like these, he will give you a new song, so that your own personal praises can go forth. if you've noticed I've been pretty low key, I haven't been posting a whole lot of inspiration, cause I needed it myself. You see me, you see blessed, not my health or my issues, just the blessings of the Lord, cause as his child, a representative of him, thats all I'm allowed let you see, because you need to see his Glory, and not my story. Yall be encouraged, and be blessed. Love you guys, and thanks for your prayers, please, continue for God's not through with me yet.

This Is My Story...

285lbs 

This was me in 2004, I was 285lbs. Unknowingly I was developing high blood pressure, and a developing heart condition. After I had my 3rd child in 1997, within a year I had gained 80 to 100lbs. And this is my story....

I was BIG 272lbs

I never would have thought that I would ever have a weight problem, I was always skinny, but somewhere along the way, I started gaining weight, I think all of those cookies caught up with me which I ate by the package BIG packages.

265lbs

   I didn't realize at first that I had gained the  weight until I took a good look at these pictures one day. You see, I always ate what I wanted, I never put a whole lot of thought into it, I just ate. One day I was getting dressed and I noticed that I looked OLD and I felt what I thought OLD must have felt like. I was tired, my body ached and my knees were always stiff. My energy level had diminished; all I wanted to do was sleep, little did I know a storm within was brewing.

In the mist the Struggle 258lbs
July 2011

Before & After in the mist of my journey....

Me Today 245lbs
October 2011

At 32 I was told I was borderline for hypertension. I just thought my body was just going through the changes a body goes through as a person starts to get older, so I quietly dismissed the diagnosis. Within a year I developed high blood pressure, then I was diagnosed with congestive heart failure a few months later. So whats a girl to do when she feels she's at the point of no return. I was miserable. I was raising 3 boys on my own, working two jobs and going to school, my Dad was dying of cancer and I was struggling to hold on to my then boyfriend. I never felt so helpless and overwhelmed.

253lbs

Me today 245lbs but the battle ain't over yet

Somewhere along way I decided I had to attempt to do something or I was going to die really young, I had to get a grip on my life. My journey hasn't been easy, I've been up and I've been down, but I kept getting back up to fight this thing they called obesity.

 I started working out, got me a good little momentum going, then I lost it, then I would start it up again, and loose it again, this was not helping the matter at all. In 2009 I had an optical stroke and temporarily lost my eye sight due to high blood pressure which caused my heart to show signs of failure.... This was the last draw, I had to fight harder, no matter what, I knew that if I lost this battle I was gonna die. So I changed the way I looked at food, I stopped eating just to eat, I stopped eating just to eat, and only ate when I was hungry and instead of setting unrealistic weight loss goals, I didn't set any, my goals became me developing a healthier life style. Six years later I was down to 248lbs, my weight fluctuates because of my body retaining fluid, in which I take meds for. Being over weight really messed my body up, it over worked my heart, causing it to become enlarged, I'm telling you I was just a mess. 

It was time to put in some real work...

Lady Deon

After

and then... I saw something

Before 

Labor Day 2011

My journey isn't over but the victory is MINE!

Strawberry & Spinach Salad w/ Feta Cheese Glazed Pecans Strawberry Wine Vinaigrette 

Since 2004 up until today.... I've lost a total of 40lbs. which may not be much, but the quality of life I've gained is PRICELESS! I eat differently, I see food as food and not my friend or my comforter, but as a source of energy and nourishment. I exercise regularly and my new favorite comfort food is a Strawberry Spinach Salad. I take all my meds from the doctor and I eat healthy... and its paying off, slowly, but how many of you know good things come to those who wait.

Reality Check! (Rampage of Thoughts)

I ended my day as I had for the last few weeks, I went to work, hit gym, came home, showered, cooked dinner for my kids and logged on to my Facebook. As I scanned through the various posts, I ran across a Youtube post of a old high school classmate about a solar storm that NASA believes may take place next year sometime and affect all of technology as we know it in America possibly setting this country back 100 years or worst (NASA). My mind began to churn with thoughts, I continued to read the other posts after I responded to the post of my former classmate, and ran across the post of my cousin who had asked a question, "If there was anything that you could do or say differently, what would that be?" My mind still disturb from my classmates post and churning with all kinds of thoughts, now was really churning. Was there something I wish I had done or said differently? I responded by saying that I would have prayed harder and longer. Because I realize that had I done this, I could have avoided a lot of mistakes, decisions, and wrong choices in my life that I can never change. See what a lot of people don't know about me, is that I am very aware of me, my surroundings, and often think on the things to come. But, I must admit, I find myself blocking out these thoughts because they frighten me, and I realize that this is because I am not ready for my life to end or change tragically as I know it. But life for us all is changing daily, its in the News paper, on the TV, radio and internet. There are people loosing jobs, the price of food, gas, clothes, and dwelling units are increasing by what seems to be, by the minute. Our children are lost, our culture is distorted, our way of life is increasingly changing and filled with too many compromises and loop holes. And change is rapidly increasing its pace and overtaking us by the minute. We've already had the END OF THE WORLD scare back in May, remember? But, my question still remains, are we ready, and should we be more focused on these things than others. I know that we can't stop living to await our fate and end, but I find myself thinking shouldn't there be something else we should be doing. The answer surely is not blowing in the wind, that's for sure. Yes, we are going to church, some of us are praying and fasting, but I ask what for a house, husband, wife, car??? No we can't stop living, but we can live better, by loving more, being more forgiving, more understanding even, and checking ourselves and our own lives to see if it measures up to the Word of God and his standards instead of our own or what the world now considers normal. I find myself asking "Is what I want more important than what God wants for me?" There are so many wrong things in life appearing OKAY, but its not. We get to caught up in life; some more than others, some attempt to get it together and hold it together only to loose our grip every now and then but we get back up again and regroup and regrip. Some of us, are high strung and separate ourselves from all manner of biblical good and conform ourselves to what is Earthly good, compromising biblical good to fit in when and where we want it. There are those who say, "I can't be worried or concerned about all of this", "I have a life to live and things to do"....... And all that's fine and dandy, but what happens when there are no more chances and no more time, then what, will saying "forgive me" have the same worth and value it does right now? Hum, I wonder..... We see tragedies all the time, some have hit home, some are abroad, but what happens when...... and I'll let you fill in the blank.

Deon,  

Making A Differance

I was sitting here at the staion and I got a call from a listener who just needed someone to talk to. Someone had made a comment to her that she  felt was offensive and she wasn't sure what they meant, and she didn't want her thoughts about the matter to get the best of her, so she called the station in hopes of reaching someone who could help her through these thoughts, and she got me. Not knowing what was troubling her I lended her my ear and allowed her to vent her frustrations to me. After listening to her tell me about the comment that had her so in an uproar within, I began to explain to her that she may have misunderstood it the wrong way and that what appeared to be an insult was really a compliment. The statement made to her was; "her having her son was the best thing that could have ever happen to her". (for reference)

 I said all that to say this, in this life we live, we do not truely belong to ourselves, but we are vessels for the use of the Lord. Now those of you who may be reading this, I don't know how spiritual you are or if you have a relationship with the Lord, and I would say that if you don't, you may want to develop one, because we do not belong to ourselves. We ought to live life in such a way that we are fit to be used at any given moment by God, because you never know who's blessing you are carrying. Your life is a gift, but not just to you, but to others as well. My quest and prayer is to be better in every way possible, and to affect the atmosphere around me in some way. Now, where others would have turned this lady away, or brushed her off, God saw fit to use me, and that felt good, and I felt honored to be of some use. The lady and I continued to talk some and ended the call with a prayer, and she felt empowered to go on and be better in her own life. My life is real, is me not being afraid or ashamed to share my love, my testomonies, my experiences, my ability to be transparent to others, that they may be impacted, provoked (in a positive way) and inspired, because my life really is real...... And I wanna live it in such a way that I make a differnce.

Yall Be Blessed!

The misconceptions of dating...... "Where did the love go"

Do you ever get irritated with the dating? I do. What ever happened to the guy that would ask, "Say if you're not busy Saturday, can I take you out?" What happened? Guys gotta improve their game and understand, that there are still a few of us ladies who like that kinda stuff! If I meet one more grown 40 something year old man tryna run game I'ma scream! First of all, understand this, I know that when a man first meet or encounter a female, he already knows whether he will approach her or not, and what his purpose for approaching her if he decides to approach her. So why, bother with the preliminaries of all that rig-a-morrore  and rhetoric in the initial encounter. Brothas, just be strait up with us sistas, and be truthful about your intentions, okay. Kill this thought now that every woman is a hoer or a gold digger, and every woman carries 99 bags of issues on our shoulders these are just the ones you pick, and if I hear one more time about how career woman have all these high standards, I'ma scream! When we depart from these stereotypes about each other, we as a black race of men and women.... NO WE as men and women.... we gone be alright. Sistas, not every man is a dog out to get what he can get, and brothas its some really good sistas out there ready and willing to love you if you were to dare use your heart to feel and find her. But, we need to get past the BS and the games. Many of us aren't getting any younger, lol, and a whole bunch of us are already old. I was created for your pleasures bru, but as your woman and wife, not just your woman. People we need to pull it together, cause I'm ready for love in its purest and realest form, I'm ready to settle down and be Mrs. SOMEBODY! But if we don't change the way we view ourselves.......~sigh~

I asked a brotha what was his opinion on the 42+% of African American women being single, was it our fault or what? He boldly stated that MEN were the reason. I was like HUH? shocked that he said that, he explained that, its not that women's standards where high or any of the other rhetorical crap but men just aren't ready for what women are ready for, because men feel that the more women you have the more of a man you are. He explained that we as woman we think marriage, men they think FUN. Men are sexual creatures, woman are emotional creatures. Add this to our own misconceptions about one another, dating and marriage and you get what we now have, a mess and 42+% Black women single. This is so much deeper or at least I could get deeper, but I want.... not right now anyway. But I hope those of you who find yourself reading this, will stop and think about yourself, your love, your desires to be loved and what you are willing to put into a relationship in order to get out of what you want.

Fabric Of A Woman

W O M A N - Webster defines us as Female, the Bible tells us that we were taken from the rib of man, shaped and formed in a speacial unique and spectacular way, one that brings comfort, nurturement, and  pleasure. Women have the capablity of barring life, and sustaining that life, we are teachers, and homemakers, and WE are the equivalent to the masculine compounds in -man. We are delicate creatures, effectionate and emotional. God felt the need to create us in such a way necessary for our mere existance and purpose. Therefore let us not allow ourselves to be degraded or devalued by conforming to the way of society, but let us embrace the loveliness that we possess and our unique ability to be who we are as women.  


Respect yourself and others are instantly commanded to respect you as well, love yourself, and others will love you. If you are single, do not complain about it, but embrace it until he comes, if you are married, be whom God has set forth for you to be as wife, before the foundation of the World, love your husband as God has commanded you to and cleave to him, as he to you. Do not be haughty and tare down your house with your own hands or words from your mouth. If you are a mother, sister or daughter, consider the position a blessing, because we as women hold a value far more than precious rubies.


Take pride in who you are, embrace all that there is to you. For you are beautifully and wonderfully made...... You are a W O M A N.


Deon Taylor

"Be Good To Yourself" 

This Song Says A Lot...... About me.