I ended my day as I had for the last few weeks, I went to work, hit gym, came home, showered, cooked dinner for my kids and logged on to my Facebook. As I scanned through the various posts, I ran across a Youtube post of a old high school classmate about a solar storm that NASA believes may take place next year sometime and affect all of technology as we know it in America possibly setting this country back 100 years or worst (NASA). My mind began to churn with thoughts, I continued to read the other posts after I responded to the post of my former classmate, and ran across the post of my cousin who had asked a question, "If there was anything that you could do or say differently, what would that be?" My mind still disturb from my classmates post and churning with all kinds of thoughts, now was really churning. Was there something I wish I had done or said differently? I responded by saying that I would have prayed harder and longer. Because I realize that had I done this, I could have avoided a lot of mistakes, decisions, and wrong choices in my life that I can never change. See what a lot of people don't know about me, is that I am very aware of me, my surroundings, and often think on the things to come. But, I must admit, I find myself blocking out these thoughts because they frighten me, and I realize that this is because I am not ready for my life to end or change tragically as I know it. But life for us all is changing daily, its in the News paper, on the TV, radio and internet. There are people loosing jobs, the price of food, gas, clothes, and dwelling units are increasing by what seems to be, by the minute. Our children are lost, our culture is distorted, our way of life is increasingly changing and filled with too many compromises and loop holes. And change is rapidly increasing its pace and overtaking us by the minute. We've already had the END OF THE WORLD scare back in May, remember? But, my question still remains, are we ready, and should we be more focused on these things than others. I know that we can't stop living to await our fate and end, but I find myself thinking shouldn't there be something else we should be doing. The answer surely is not blowing in the wind, that's for sure. Yes, we are going to church, some of us are praying and fasting, but I ask what for a house, husband, wife, car??? No we can't stop living, but we can live better, by loving more, being more forgiving, more understanding even, and checking ourselves and our own lives to see if it measures up to the Word of God and his standards instead of our own or what the world now considers normal. I find myself asking "Is what I want more important than what God wants for me?" There are so many wrong things in life appearing OKAY, but its not. We get to caught up in life; some more than others, some attempt to get it together and hold it together only to loose our grip every now and then but we get back up again and regroup and regrip. Some of us, are high strung and separate ourselves from all manner of biblical good and conform ourselves to what is Earthly good, compromising biblical good to fit in when and where we want it. There are those who say, "I can't be worried or concerned about all of this", "I have a life to live and things to do"....... And all that's fine and dandy, but what happens when there are no more chances and no more time, then what, will saying "forgive me" have the same worth and value it does right now? Hum, I wonder..... We see tragedies all the time, some have hit home, some are abroad, but what happens when...... and I'll let you fill in the blank.
Deon,
